Thursday, March 13, 2008

Thursday

Cliff stayed home again. Cameron threw up again this morning. The rest of us are feeling a lot better. I feel weak. I lost 5 pounds of fluids I swear. I ate 1 slice of toast and a scrambled egg today. And, my interest for food is coming back. Thank goodness. I have spent most of the day on the couch.

I think we are all on the mend! I still have to download our photos from Coco's Baptism last Sunday. And, on this Sunday my FIL will be Baptised at home. So we are happy about that. My FIL also has a scoocum new chair from Lazy Boy. He finds it to be quite comfortable. We are happy about that, because we know he is in so much pain. I just feel so ill over everything right now. I feel so sad for Cliff and his family. So, we take every day as it comes and enjoy life whilst FIL is still here. What else can we do right? We just hate seeing him deteriorate right in front of us. We know how much pain he is in. He is a trouper that is for sure. Thankfully we have good home care nurses here, and a great doctor that makes home calls.

We took Dad to the Cancer Centre on Tuesday. It was regarding chemo, but Dad has decided not to do the chemo as he had terrible results dealing with the after effects with the last 5 chemo sessions he did last year. And, because of his low weight it really wasn't advisable. And, chemo isn't a guarantee. Really it could give him MAYBE an extra month or two. But really what kind of extra months/life?. We are thankful that the meds are helping him keep pain free as possible. It is hard to see him dopey though. Slowly we are losing him. I am sad for us all.

How will we tell the kids? That is going to be so hard. One day at a time...one day at a time.

7 comments:

AmberP said...

Oh Cathy my poor dear friend and your family. I pray for you guys often, and pray HARD for your father-in-law and mother in law. I feel so much sadness for them, and for Cliff. Lots of hugs to you guys.

I can't wait to see pictures of Coco's baptism. I am also very very happy to hear that you are feeling better. I hope you guys are officially on the mend and over the flu.

I went and checked out Cameron's blog btw... I love it!

Jillian Kirby said...

Oh Cathy... I wish I had some magic wand that I could wave and make everything good for you all. It's so hard to stand in the sidelines and watch friends go through such a tough time, knowing there's nothing you can do to help.

Let me know if there is anything I can do. Thinking of you all.
J

Allyson said...

Daddy and I continue to keep all of you in our thoughts and prayers. I find myself waking up at night and thinking about all that is happening at your place and it makes me so very sad. We send you air hugs and kisses until Sunday's Baptism. Love to all. xxxooo

Kerry said...

That's really tough...I'm glad to hear there's some small comforts of a new chair, and bigger comforts of the family being close.

FunkyMomma said...

Hugs to you and yours Cathy. What an awful time. But it sounds like you are making the best of it.

ticblog said...

You'll find strength, Cathy, when and where you least expect it. And when you are weak, we'll all be here to help support you.

Much love,

Hope

Yvonne said...

I wish you and your family all the strength .... it can't be easy. When the time comes to tell your children the words will come!

All the best, Yvonne!