Thursday, May 13, 2010

Returns



We took a trip to our local IKEA awhile back. Family trips in the van are always a lot of fun! We pick up some Tim Horton's and they get a couple of Timbits each.

This particular trip was last minute. I cannot even remember what we bought! Hmmm I have to keep thinking on that. My memory is so bad now that I am so old :D

Anyways, we arrived and the sign above them was perfect! We told them to make a grumpy pouty face and that is what they did. The photos are better on Cliff's camera. LOL.


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

A home movie.





Claire had to prepare and read a speech in her grade three class earlier this year. She choose to write about her family. Cliff started taping her without anybody knowing. This video is a sneak peek into the life of our family. I love it! Always loud, but there is always love. And some crazy moments. Very crazy moments.

Like when Dora the Explorer got into the peanut butter and cream cheese. Right Caroline!!? Totally random, and a whole other day with many more stories and images just like this one!










A walk along the river.

My Catie Girl.


My sweet Caroline!

My six. In the golden sunlight.

Favourite iPhone Photos

Cameron, Claire and Carly in DT Vancouver during the Olympics!

P.S. The colour on here is the lighting on the sculpture. I love the effects!

and one, two three JUMP!


I am finally downloading my images off of my phone. I hope to post some more photos today! I am playing catch up online! :D


Thursday, May 06, 2010

What to say?

I am what? I am feeling how? I feel like? I don't feel like. I am not sure. I am tired. I need a holiday. I need a break.

I cannot believe Caroline turned 4. I cannot believe I have so many photos to develop that I am overwhelmed at how absolutely empty the photo albums are. Especially Coco's. Too much time to get it all together. However feeling that MEGA guilt of not getting it done. I think I should hire somebody to get those done for me. I think I need to outsource that part of my life!

My new little Nephew was born one week ago! Welcome to the world Colby Thomas! How we adore you. I am insanely proud of my warrior sister Amy who endured so much! SOOOO proud of you, and the Mom you have become in the last week. So amazing! I took some photos of the little sweetie. I am waiting for the birth announcement before I share any photos. All I know is that he is wonderful!

This weekend, Cliff and I celebrate 12 married years. Yes, our anniversary is on Sunday. Also on Mothers Day. That was poorly planned ;D

That is a lot of years together, and I wish we could celebrate it. However, it will be pretty lame as per usual. Hopefully the 20th anniversary will make up for it LOL. We really haven't made that big a deal of the married years. I think we celebrate enough. Maybe just not on the day. But we often talk about our life together. Life is good to us!

And, well. We are making a move. A big move. I will blog more about that later. Let me just say, I will not be MurrayvilleMom anymore. Remember the big stuff I was talking about early. Yah. I may create a brand new blog, with a fresh feel, or I may not blog anymore. Well, except for my work blog.

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Swagger Wagon



I think this is awesome. I wish I could fit a swagger wagon too! My favourite line "Where my motherfather at" so hilarious!

Happy Tuesday!


Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Perfect

Beautiful peonies from last year. Feel free to right click and save! xo


Today has been a perfect day for me. Easy getting out the door. Kids that helped me when I asked for help. The kids used their manners nicely today.

Hugs and love first thing in the morning. Artwork with Mommy and a rainbow on a page meant just for me. Kids jumping on a trampoline together. Fits of laughter and joy filling the yard, and my heart.

Sunshine. Bonus!


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Totally a Tuesday...

I had a nice quiet morning this morning. The kind of morning that I always wish for. This morning it happened.

We walked up to drop off all four big kids at school (that part of the morning not so great...LOL) When we were home again, we popped in the move Enchanted and just watched it. Coco on my left, and Caroline on my right. Courtney slept, with her feet pressed into my armpits. Caroline, snuggled into my side.

I hardly get a quiet opportunity like this particular moment. It was nice. Until I had to wake up Courtney, and pause the show to go get Catie from school. Back to the normal day to day grind. I am always thankful for these little moments that I appreciate so very much.






Tuesday, April 13, 2010

aching in my ovaries

I have to say, getting my period sucks. It is long, it is frustrating. I forgot what getting regular periods are like. Now I remember. And I wish I could have a break from it. Yuck.

I also have to say that with people getting pregnant, announcing new pregnancies. Birthing new babies. Waiting on babies (like my little sis Amy) my ovaries are aching a lot. Not physically I guess, but mentally I miss having a baby in the house. I cannot believe that we have an almost three year old (in November) and almost the end of diapers.

All of these lasts. I always go in and kiss all of the kids goodnight, and tuck them in before I make it into bed. I gently run my hand over my little Coco's silky hair. Run my hand along her growing body. I ache. I miss that new baby. That time when everything felt the best in my life. With a baby on my hip, or attached to me elsewhere. Babies. There is nothing like them in the world. Not easily replaced by running, photography. Dinners out. Wine. Nothing. I have felt this void lately. It pulls me, it tugs at my emotions.

I have to say I am surprised at how strong these feeling are. I know we are done, but this feeling of getting closer to 40. Me. Looking at my frown lines in between my eyebrows. Me watching my skin get more wrinkly. Watching my baby years pass by me too quickly. Watching the kids grow up all around me. My oldest who now stands up so tall that his head is almost at my mouth. I miss that baby stage. I recently got rid of all of my baby girls stuff. The boy stuff long gone. Gave away little swimmers to my other sis April. The sweet little white basinette waiting for Amy's new little one. I have bags and boxes of girls stuff. Just waiting on my sister to see what she is having! Today she is 40 weeks. She looks amazing, and I cannot wait to see if there is a sweet niece or sweet nephew in there. Only time will tell.

Wondering, how do I really feel. Am I OK with this? Am I going to be able to live knowing six kids are enough. Wondering just how hard another pregnancy would be on my body. How would my legs hold out. How would the kids feel?! How would we feel about this.

Yes, I am sure by now you all think I am crazy, but sometimes I wonder if we are crazy NOT to.

Here I am. Feeling these all to familiar feelings. Once again.

I guess it is just a case of the baby fever. Only time will tell. All I know is that my ovaries are aching. I feel a sense of emptiness. Of sadness. Of wondering.

Is our life complete? I have to take some time to think about this. Maybe one I get my 'baby fix' these feelings will leave me once again.


Friday, April 09, 2010

Friday!

Whoa, where did March go? How did April get here so fast! Whirlwind of activity around our place lately. More on that next week.

I hardly have the time to think! Today, I told my Mom I was hadn't seen her since Thanksgiving. However, I meant Easter. Thanks for correcting me today Mom. And, thank you for giving us the bags of sliced oranges and apples for our drive home. That was a nice treat for us all. Those little things sure keep me going these days!

We had the whole family over for Easter dinner last weekend. Full turkey dinner, and a ham. And a birthday cake. And some lemon meringue pie. And wine. And coffee, and strong tea. Right April?!

We also sang happy birthday to my sister April, and my Mom. Their birthday's are two days apart. (April baked her own cake poor sis LOL--p.s. she said she would bring it or else I would have had one there!!) And, I got to see my sister Amy's beautiful belly. Her first baby! She is due April 13th and we are all patiently waiting! As are her and Tyler (and K!) So exciting!

It was was wonderful. All 15 of us squished around two tables in our dining room. That was a record for the most people to dinner in one place in our home. Lots of great memories that is for sure. I am looking forward to making new memories too!

Lately, I am falling asleep on the sofa. Waking up at 3 and crawling up to bed. My mega eye twitch is back with a vengeance. Dog tired. Only to listen to my husband snore in my ear. I am just thankful for all he does for us in our family. I know he is tired because he really works two jobs. His day job, and his responsibilities as a family man. I am truly blessed with an amazing husband! Thank you dear Cliff. Seriously, people always ask how I do it. His name is always at the top of that answer! I always say I couldn't do it without his love and support.

This morning was a morning of hell really. I had a very difficult morning getting the kids off to school. So, I let them go on their own. They did fine. I followed them just to make sure they made it. And, of course they did.

I made it up to the kids by picking up McDonald's for us for lunch. Mother of the year right here! LOL.

Happy Friday!

P.S. The items that have been placed around our home are still standing and are NOT being touched. We have turned a corner. Next milestone to meet, good bye diapers forever. Working on this one! Woot!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Whoa, they have let it ALONE!

We have been slowly adding 'stuff' or decor to our home in the last week. Our house, void of very much. A shell really with just the walls and the deemed essentials around. A lot of our then precious items, broken from kids in the past. Sometimes hot tempers have broken stuff in our house. Thrown from the upstairs 'balcony' area. Smashing down onto the hard tile floors. So, we are hesitant to ever put anything out ever again.

However, life may be changing for us. It seems we just *may* be turning a corner on this one particular issue. We bought some tall, white, decorative breakable candle holders and candles. We put all three of them on our dining room table, and you know what nobody touched them, or moved them. Or pretended they were pirate swords. Or, picked at the tangerine coloured wax!

This is BIG!

So, we left them. I was actually going to put them away for night. Just to avoid any kids who may decide to touch them early in the morning when we are still getting ready upstairs. Little hands, little explorers. Wanting to touch everything around! This has been a MAJOR battle for us. We always seemed to lose this one.

So, they are still out. Three meals, and snacks later. They are still there. I think, we are having a shift in our household.

It brings delight within me, to be able to look around our home and enjoy pretty items. It makes my heart sing. Visual beauty, ahhhhhhhh. I am tired of living in a brown shell, much like a big brown box. I need colour, texture. Love. In our house, in our home.

Sounds I love.

In the morning, Cliff and I are usually awoken by the sounds of our kids. Sometimes, we hear screaming, or fighting. Those mornings are rare, and startle us awake! Not so nice to be jolted awake and into action right away.

The mornings I love, are the very quiet mornings. When all of the kids are upstairs and talking. Or laughing. Or mega giggles. The beautiful quiet sounds. Where the kids are talking about stuff. Like how Mommy and Daddy bought a new lamp for the bedroom. And, how they like it. Or, how Carly takes Courtney out of her crib (yes, she is STILL in there and she still loves it!) and just brings her in to change her diaper on our floor. Cliff and I just lay there in bed, watching and listening to the two kids interact with each other.

I love the sounds of sweet laughter. So much laughter, that our cheeks hurt from smiling while listening to their conversations. Cliff and I, still tired, from of course lack of sleep most of the time. We love those mornings. The still quiet mornings.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Gratitude

Today, I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for my home, for my cozy bed. For my husband, for my beautiful kids. For my growing business. I realize in the craziness of life, I don't stop in to say thank you enough. I have so much to be thankful for. And yet, I don't feel like I have enough. Isn't that awful?! It is the truth.

Thank you for my eyes that see, for ears that hear. For a body that works. No matter about the flaws. It is time to start focussing in on more joy. More love, more acceptance of who I am, and what I want to accomplish. I want to live a BIG life. Not a little life. Life these days have felt little. So, I have to make changes! BIG changes to realize my dreams and goals. It isn't going to be easy, but I can do it.

I am feeling rather excited these days. I have so much to be grateful for and to.

I am thankful for good friends who stand by me, and support me.

I am thankful to parents who help out when we need help.

I am thankful to a certain cousin who always loves me, talks with me and makes me feel. And thankful for the treats she brings over. So much joy in our conversation!

I am thankful to friends old and new.

I am thankful to many speakers that have inspired me to keep working hard, and to be me. I can only be me. And, to believe in myself.

Thank you to those who love me. I know there are those who don't. I am OK with that. I have decided that I have to be true to me. If you do not like me, that is OK. I accept that. I cannot change who I am. I can only work hard at being better at the things I am not so good at.


I am am also thankful for a particular speaker at my local RR two weeks ago Sylvie Ruegger. Do you know who she is?! Well, in 1984 she ran for Canada in the very first women's marathon in Los Angeles. She ended up in 8th place. She felt she let Canada down by not placing with a gold, silver and bronze. What a HUGE weight to carry around.
I can relate to that feeling of letting people down. Failing. Sylvie's talk about her journey and struggles as an athlete. Her trials and tribulations. Got me all emotional. She stirred up deep feelings that I have been carrying around for a very long time. I actually started welling up with tears, and started quietly sobbing. To the point where I actually had to leave the room! I felt like a total loser breaking down and crying, but hey, it was like she got me, and that was a a good thing.

What I took away from her talk is that is OK to fail. It is OK! Her story was so powerful. She helped me to believe in me again. Never give up on your dreams. Even if the original dream becomes something differently entirely.

I am thankful to you my faithful readers of my blog. Changes are coming! Believe in the opportunities that are all around you. You may not recognize them as opportunity, but they are right there waiting for you. Take that leap and never look back!

This is how I am choosing to live. I choose not to live in fear anymore.





Never Give Up!
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Friday, March 19, 2010

The Kissing Tree


I found this kissing tree on a photographers website, and you can also make your own! For your and your hubby, or for your kids. Happy Friday! Just type in the link on the bottom of the tree. Isn't that sweet!! Awhhhhh.


Thursday, March 04, 2010

Let it be.






I have neglected my home blog once again. I can only spread myself so thin!

So, what has been going on. Let me say, what has NOT been going on!!

Making some big changes in our lives. REALLY big, and we are getting excited about it. Not ready to share, but you will all find out in the near future.

We are ready for big changes, and they bring a lot of excitement. For all of us!

I have spent my days running my business, running 4-5 days per week, doing home work, doing hair, doing laundry. Making snacks, cleaning up. Running errands and the usual grind.

Sad the Olympics are over, and miss watching events on TV. It was wicked awesome to watch all the spirit Canada had during the 17 days! We all had a lot of fun going downtown, and of course watching it all! I am so proud to be Canadian these days!

Our very first library/school library book was ripped up by Courtney today. This is the very first book in all of the school years. Six years! I feel bad for Carly, as it was her book. She wrote a little apology letter to her teacher, and we taped it up as best we could.

Cameron has his palate expander in his mouth. I crank that sucka once a day for him. I am proud of him for taking this on like a champ. We are also extremely proud of the FIVE A's he brought home on his report card! Go Cameron! He totally brought up his grades on his own! He said he would have one A this term!! Good job Mr!

Claire. She of course just turned nine last week. She was spoiled with a lot of new clothes, earrings, gift cards. All the things a girl of her age would want! She looks so grown up to me now! She totally has an interest in cooking, and baking. She knows all the ingredients for pancakes and helps make them with her Daddy. She recently sang with the school choir (Grade 3 district choir) who all sang 'Oh Canada' to the crowd at the torch ceremony in our town. She also sang with her choir at the school Olympics assembly. I was very proud to see her do that, and watching her grow so beautifully.

Carly, she is an excellent skipper! She also likes to wear her beautiful brown hair in two braids. She looks so cute and she is growing up so much! She likes to take care of herself. She is very complimentary to others, making them feel good. She also likes to dress in skirts and dresses. She also likes shoes. She is very helpful, and wants to make things good! She also has a huge love of horses and nature. And wants the world to be a good and clean place to live. My nature girl. Love her!

Catie, she is coming out of her shell at school. She got a '4' in skipping on her report card. That 4 means exceeds expectations. We were so proud to read that! She is also really digging reading! She really reminds me of how Cameron was when he was her age. She LOVES to learn. I am happy about that. She is so active, and jumps around all day. She is full of beans. She loves to balance, she is learning a few cheerleading moves and has them perfected. She says she wants to cheer. She also loves running!

Caroline. Miss Mae Mae. She has this gorgeous head of blonde curls, and this awesome brown eyes. She is miss casual. Prefers pants and track pants and runners. To skirts and dresses. She still talks very loudly, and makes sure she is heard! She has the most interesting conversations, and she does make us laugh. She is in that sneaky, going to raid the pantry phase like all of the others did at her age too. She LOVES her runners!

Courtney. She is two, and she sure show us that. She helps me start the laundry, she loves to help. She also is talking a whole lot more. When she smiles her eyes disappear and she giggles a lot these days! She is a joy to have in our lives. She still sucks her fingers, and grabs her ear. She still reaches for my chest for comfort. Breastfeeding ended AGES ago. She walks up and down the stairs easily, and now wants a pillow in her crib. She still is in her crib. (Thank goodness!!) And, hopefully diapers will be done by the time she turns three in November. Probably at that time, she will move into a bed. A big girl twin bed. Just like her sisters. She sure loves them all so very much!

Life is good. For the most part. I am thankful for many people, friends and family in my life. I wish that I could slow down a bit, and have a bit more fun, however that is not how it is right now. We are always flying by the seat of our pants. Running here and there, and everywhere. Not really any quiet moments, or times of rest. Most nights I am asleep on the couch until I can drag my tired but to bed. I don't think I have been in bed before the end of the day in years really.

I try my best to remain positive, and to keep strong. There are many things going against me at the moment, and I try my best to wade through and do my best. For, that is all I can do. I am sorry if there those out there who cannot understand how crazy my life is. I know there are those out there who do get it. Thank you. This means more than you know! I am thankful for those can accept me for who I am. I am only human, and do my absolute best. There are those out there who have totally let me down. Of course that saddens me, however I must keep moving on, moving forward. Pushing through. Conquering all that I have to do in the day, the week the month the year.

Anyways. I have been quiet on here, as I don't feel I have a lot to blog about. Really boring stuff in fact. One nice thing I have been enjoying lately is listening to all of the kids break into spontaneous rounds of 'Oh Canada.' That would have never happened before the Olympics. That makes me proud.




Wednesday, February 24, 2010

NINE, she is nine!

Happy Birthday Claire! xo

Monday, February 22, 2010

Catie's first wiggly tooth


The finger doing the pointing, is Claire's finger. She helped us find it!


Saturday, February 20, 2010

Little Sisters {Best Friends Love Each Other}

{Caroline, who walks around telling ups that best friends love each other, and Coco}

::BIG HUGS::


Caroline's shirt says LOVE.

Courtney wearing her big sister's boots. She doesn't mind that they are too big!

And Courtney, the baby. Ha ha.

I love the way the two of these girls gets along. I know Caroline is a great big sister, to her little sister Coco. They help each other out. Courtney helps her make her sister's bed. Caroline lets me know when her sister needs her diaper changed. Or, that she is hungry LOL.

I love the relationship that they both have. It is really neat to watch them grow up together, and I am happy I can watch this daily! I totally enjoy my morning when the four big kids are at school, and then it is just time for the three of of us together. I cherish this, because after the next school year, Caroline will move to full time K, and then the year right after that, she will too.

I will be alone in the house. In two more school years.

That will be weird for me.


My Baby Girl {Coco}






I have been neglecting my blog, and going through my image folders, I decided to post a few images that I love. They are not technically perfect, or going to win any awards, but I love them. These are of my baby! I am ashamed to say, I cannot even remember how old Courntey is here, but she still has the same sucky fingers, and the same eyes. Next, I will post a couple from February.

I don't really even pull out my camera to take photos of my own family, and I hope they will forgive me when they see how lame their albums really are. Cameron of course, has the most. Courtney has about a quarter of a book. Boo, bad Momma I know. However, both Caroline and Courtney have complete blogs of my pregnancies of each of them! Oh how the times have changed!

I wish digital would have been there when Cameron was born in '99. I wish I would have blogged each and EVERY pregnancy and birth. However, the other four have total baby books. So, do Caroline and Courtney, but not as complete as I would like.

Having six kids, all of the memories and 'important details' begin to fade into a big old blog which is my brain these days!

All I know, is that my 'baby' is going to be three this Novemeber, and I cannot believe it! She is so fun and we enjoy everything more because she is the last.





Thursday, February 11, 2010

Olympic Fever!

Well, on Day 102 (Monday) the torch rolled into our town of Langley, BC Canada. We live an hour away from the City of Vancouver (Host to the Winter Olympics 2010) The last leg of the torch arrives in Vancouver tomorrow, and then the Opening Ceremonies. I also like to see that VAN2010 is a trending topic on Twitter! Yay!

Anyways, we watched the torch at the Langley Events Centre, and one of my daughters (our eldest) Claire sang as part of the official ceremony amongst other grade 3 classes in the area. Carly went with her class, and Cameron when to a different location and did the same thing. Cliff took the day off work to experience this (probably) once-in-a-lifetime experience together. I know our three little girls loved the excitement too! We all wore our official Hudson's Bay CANADA t-shirts. Cliff in black, me yellow. Kids all in the red.

I took photos and videos on my iphone, but I am not sure how to upload to blogger...so. Boring posts sans photos!

Here is a beautiful song sung by a local 15 year old! I Think she is pretty darn amazing!



Cheers! One more day to go! I am excited to see who lights the cauldron on the very last leg of the Olympics. I also wished I could see Jann Arden and Michael Buble run the leg of the race today I believe!

Here is one more song that I love too (and shows the sort of branding of the 2010 Olympics) And, I hope we get some snow on Cypress!! It is like Spring here this year!

Vancouver's wonderful well-known Sarah McLachlan. A beautiful song!